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Tuesday, March 30, 2010

The World Just Got Tiny

Greetings from the graveyard shift!

Everything has shrunken, for now, to revolve around the astonishing new creature who arrived (alive!!!!!!!!) on March 26th. And as you know, aliveness is the ultra-high standard that we strive for in the land of KuKd.

Introducing Sean One-Week-Late Murphy LeMoine, formerly known as Fetus:



Flushed and awestruck as a newborn infant is placed on my chest, right after delivery. Wait - that's Sean! I wonder how on earth my five-foot-one frame managed to carry an 8-pound-10-oz baby (!!!):



Here we are, a nuclear family in the traditional, non-knocked-down sense. Feels kinda weird, in a good way:



Eh bien sur, les grandparents. Producing a live baby is a family affair, after all. Touch your computer screen... can you feel the grandparental joy emanating from this picture?



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I swear I've got more coherent thoughts to share, and will do so in my next post. For now, even stringing together coherent thoughts is mildly difficult. I'm exhausted. Happy. Astounded. Afraid. Ecstatic. Concerned. Amazed. Exhausted. Did I mention exhausted?

Signing off at 5:22am, west coast time. I've been up since 1am, working the graveyard shift, and sleep is coming like an opaque cloak falling over my eyes. Nighty night, and back in a few days!

85 comments:

Jennifer Olson said...

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! A big and hearty congrats. I feel a little ridiculous crying since I don't even know you, but then again, I'm graveyard-shifting myself with my live-baby-after-stillbirth daughter. So happy for both of you. xoxox

Curls O Fred said...

Smiling and wishing you much rest.

Sharon said...

Woohoo!!! Welcome to the world Sean! Hand in there Mon, thse graveyard shifts turned me into a rather horrible person but the good news is they do pass fairly quickly.
Thinking of the three of you!!!

gwinne said...

Oh, Monica, congratulations! He's lovely. He's alive. He's yours.

BluebirdSinging said...

I am crying tears of joy for you guys right now!!!!
Congratulations - and welcome to the world Sean!!!

*~*Lis*~* said...

So awesome!

jill said...

So very happy for you and your husband! Sean is just beautiful!!

A Trampy Life by Piper said...

Congrats!! He was born on my hubby's birthday !! Good luck and enjoy him to the fullest!

Audrey said...

Whoa Nelly, he's a biggun'! So, so happy for you. Good work, mama.

Keepontrying said...

He is Amazing!

Barbara said...

Loveliness.

xxx

Leslie said...

Oh wow. Congratulations. He is so beautiful. The grandparent picture sort of kills me. Wow.

Inanna said...

Oh yay! All kinds of yay!!Look at that big, sweet boy! I'm so happy for you, mama. Enjoy every single glorious sleepless moment of your babymoon! :))

Supposed to be... "Mama G"... said...

Oh Wow... congratulations!
Do you know what an inspiration you are? You give me hope! Thank you for sharing all of your thoughts and fears.

Kells said...

Congratulations! I've been waiting for this post! You all look beautiful!

Wonderful!

biojen said...

Wow, just wow. I'm in tears over here - he is so beautiful. Congratulations!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Chris said...

Beautiful pictures and a beautiful little guy. Good luck with the sleeping thing. It gets easier, but only marginally so.

PS. HELL YEAH

wifey said...

He is beyond beautiful. You are blessed - looking forward to reading your ruminations on mothering.

Congrats!

Heidi B said...

Thrilled for you all! Have been sending good thoughts from afar (well still Seattle)but haven't posted a message in awhile. Will continue to do send thoughts of sleeping and eating babies in hopes all goes well. Smiling...thinking about my first weeks with my boys. My how they are such a blur of love.

Lindsay said...

Oh my! He is precious!!!! You go girl! I am so happy for you!

Erika P said...

Oh, he's gorgeous! The pictures have me all teary too. Welcome to the world-out-here, little Sean. So wonderful to have you here and alive.

(I've been a long time lurker, loving your blog and thinking of you frequently in these last weeks of your pregnancy, but not commenting - lame, I know. Now that I've broken the ice, I promise to comment more.)

Moky said...

Just beautiful, congratulations!

Enough happiness said...

That is awesome news, Congratulations! He is so handsome!

Malory said...

Congratulations! I can feel the love through your pictures. So happy for you!

Cassie said...

Glowing in happiness for you. Thank you for the work you've done. Labor is such hard #$%ing work...as I know you already knew!I can't wait to hear all the details of your birth story, as I was eager to read your dirth stories. They are all beautiful, meaningful, and deserve to be heard. I think all mamas everwhere, of live or of dead babies, should be thanked for the care, concern, love, and hard physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual work it takes to be a vessel bringing life forth, no matter the outcome (but, ooh--esp. for the mama of a 8lb plus baby!!--my Grayson was 8lbs15oz, and I'm small like you--5'2 on a good day:).
I am remninded of something I just read from a book called Light Comes Through (yes, I am grasping at trying to understand my kumfumbled state via studying Buddhhism along with many other world views--I am totally in that grasping at straws in the dark stage:). It proposes that if we feel like suffering and pain is too common (for us and in the world--and what KuKd Mama does not feel that way?!)---we need only realize that we need not be selfish with our happiness--like, just reach out and help someone else feel happy and feel their own joy...it is yours, too, it is ours...all of ours. I, for one, am rejoicing in your triumph---and it IS a triumph--over what, I don't know, but I am lifted by your beautiful pictures and the joy that emanates from them. Thank You, thank you, thank you....+ love from this fellow KuKd mom.

Mandi said...

He's beautiful, congratulations!

Kris said...

A wonderfully huge congrats to you all. He is amazing. Your family is radiant and my heart is filled with genuine joy for you all.
Hooooooray!!!!!!!

Anonymous said...

You made a good one! Just found your blog, love the humor. So sorry for the hard road to baby.

Hope852 said...

OMW girl I have been pulling my hair out here waiting for an update!!! All I can say is thank goodness for Chris' update on your last post or I may have just worried myself over the edge....

I am so proud of you and teary and happy... goosebumps - oh the joy I'm feeling right now is as if it were me giving birth. I have stuck around with you for quite some time even though I don't comment much - but this ... oh boy I feel so useless sending wishes from so far away!! CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR BRAND NEW ADDITION - He is so incredibly gorgeous in his aliveness xxxxxxx

Jem said...

What beautiful pictures of such a happy family! I'm trying not to cry tears of joy (I'm at work!!)

Amy said...

Congratulations! So happy for you! Sean is absolutely beautiful!

Reba said...

how did i not cry at the picture of him, or the picture of your sweet little family, yet burst into tears (in my office at work as i'm hastily minimizing windows to look like i'm working) when i saw the picture of the grandparents. grandpa's eyes in particular.

welcome, sean! way to go, monica! welcome to the world of no sleep, ever again. i'm SO glad you're here. :)

Bibliomama said...

Welcome to the world, Sean -- nice job on the breathing. I'd say hold onto your butts, but I know you've been through the wars. Normal baby pain-in-the-assness will hopefully seem like a walk in the park. But if not, feel free to complain.

leahjane8 said...

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!! He is beeeeea-utiful! Back when I discovered this world of kukd bloggers, yours was the first that really resonated with me. Smart, funny, irreverant, honest. I've followed you for over a year and I am SO HAPPY for you!

Amy said...

He is huge and handsome.... and alive.... all lovely things to check off the list. You must be so happy.

Emerging Butterfly said...

You did it! Yes....this is your time. ((HUG))

So very happy for you guys...he is perfectly beautiful, and you've waited SO long for this time. Enjoy it....enjoy it.

XXXXXX

Schae said...

i am beyond chuffed for you - person who i've never met and don't know aside from your writing! I am beaming at my husband as he looks at me strangely. CONGRATULATIONS! And welcome Sean! WELCOME!

Michelle said...

OMG he is BEAUTIFUL! He is PERFECT! Words can not say how HAPPY I AM FOR YOU!!! This made my day!

AnnaMarie said...

Sean is so cute! Congratulations on surviving a pregnancy after KuKd!

seattlemomma said...

So many congratulations to you and Kevin on the birth of your beautiful and so-much-larger-than-life Sean!! He is absolutely precious and perfect. I am so very happy for your family!

I'm someone that you likely won't remember, because I knew you only briefly at a time when Zachary was still alive and kicking. I've thought of you often over the last few years and have followed your blog, waiting anxiously and hoping for the day that you would get to take home your sweet baby from the hospital.

Take joy in these precious first days and weeks. You deserve them FAR more than most.

I know that Sean's big brother is watching you all and is happy to see his whole family at peace for the first time in a long time.

Adele said...

Long time reader, previously always too shy to comment.

So glad. So moved by your photos.

Abigail W. said...

I genuinely wept with joy at the sight of your beautiful breathing son. So happy for you--as if that begins to cover it. You go where we all dream of going.

Sophie said...

Congratulations!!! Sean is just beautiful! xx

poppycat.wordpress.com said...

Warm congrats on your hard fought for and hard won victory. All seems somehow more right in this world now that he is here.

Beautiful family.

tbean said...

What a beautiful and ALIVE baby you have there. Amazing. congratulations.

Fireflyforever said...

He is so beautiful. Congratulations. I'm beyond delighted that, on this occasion, the bitching deadbaby penthouse had no vacancies. Wishing you both joy (and a little bit of sleep) with your wee'un!

Sarah said...

CONGRATULATIONS!

Just Breathe said...

He's beautiful. Congratulations.

Jenn said...

Congrats he is beautiful!

Kahla said...

He is Perfect! Congratulations to you all, I'm so very happy for you. Good luck during the next few weeks getting all settled in as a family of three and keep telling yourself that sleep is over-rated... eventually you'll believe it! ;o) Congratulations again on your precious little boy!

Natalia said...

I had little tears in my eyes of joy for both of you! CONGRATULATIONS! You make a beautiful family and Sean looks adorable.

'Murgdan' said...

Screamed out loud, AND clapped, when I saw this post. Congrats! So so happy for you and your family. :-)

Kara's Mom said...

SO SO SO excited and overjoyed for you all! Congratulations - he is beautiful. I hope to be as lucky as you in June, to deliver my LIVE babies. Sending you and yours much love across the miles. xxoo

Rach said...

Congrats, I hope motherhood is all you hoped it would be.

Hope's Mama said...

As a dear friend who has also lost a baby said to me the day my Angus was born, "you got a live one!!!" I laughed, but only because I could because it was a joke amongst babylost friends.
"You got a live one, Monica!!"
Soooooooooooooo freakin' happy for all of you.
Sean is a gem. Good work on making such a big boy.
xo

Brooke said...

Congrats, to all of you! The joy is palpable!

lis said...

oh, ive been waiting for this update.
so glad that everything went well and i can't wait to hear the rest. he is just beautiful.

Natalie said...

Lovely lovely lovely!!!!!! So much joy.

angie said...

Gorgeous photos. YAY!

Being Me said...

Oh guys, CONGRATULATIONS! I feel a bit silly (cos you know, we don't *know* each other, except in a DBM sense) but this news has made my day!

He is divine. I particularly melted at the photo of the very lovely grandparents. Grandpa's face just about says it all- a mixture of many emotions. Beautiful. Joy.

Enjoy it all xxxx

Cape Girl said...

CONGRATULATIONS!!! He is beautiful. And you look wonderful, too. His pictures made me cry. I am so happy for you guys. What an amazingly joyous event.

Sonya said...

Monica... thanks for the amazing, breathing, squirming, diapered reminder that life goes on. Luv ya as much as I can from one blogger to another.
Sonya

Pundelina said...

Oh Mon - he's beautiful!!!!!!!!!

I have been stalking your blog for news and piccies and even contemplated FB stalking you but decided that would be overboard.

I'm soooooooo happy for you guys, enjoy little Sean!

AnxiousMummyto3 said...

CONGRATULATIONS!! This is so fantastic-my stomach literally did a flip when I saw this on my blogroll. Can't wait for the birth story. He is soooo gorgeous!!!
xxxx Love you

myskytimes said...

Welcome to the world, little Aries man!!! Sean is such a cutie and I love the family pictures. Gonna wipe away the sneaky tears ad raise my coffeecup for you guys.

All the best and loads of love! xoxoxox

Sunette said...

WOW - Congratulations.

Sunette

MB and Frank said...

good job sean! way to make it here safe and sound! i wish your family loads of joy and sleepiness in the coming weeks. thank you for giving us babylost mommas hope that a living child CAN. BE. DONE.

loribeth said...

Congratulations!! He is just beautiful. : )

SaanenMother said...

Absolutely wonderful. Congratulations all around.
I am grinning and elated for you all.
BIG BIG HUGS.

Babyless Mother said...

Ok, so I've been following your blog for a couple of months now and holding my breath every time there was a few days in between your posts. I've been checking like crazy for updates on the birth. You have no idea how happy and excited I was to see this post. This was the first time in a long time that I got excited about someone else having a baby. I am so happy for you and your family. It makes me feel good inside to know that finally a good thing happened to a good well deserving woman. Enjoy your child for a lifetime!!!!

Meredith said...

so so so happy for you. your family gives so many people hope.

Brenna said...

Tears! Happy, happy tears reading this FANTABULOUS news. I'm ecstatic for you and your family...he's incredible.

Clare said...

Congrats! I hope you'll share your birth story with us soon.

Lani said...

such great news monica! i haven't been around lately but i always want to share in the happiness that is a brand new baby. sending you and your beautiful family so much love. xo

Anonymous said...

Amazing, Congratulations!!! So happy for your. Looking forward to more posts and a published book with a happy ending!

shelby said...

Oh happy happy day!!! Congratulations - he's so lovely! Wishing you sleep - S

PFM said...

Monica, I have chills. He is gorgeous.

Baby Smiling In Back Seat said...

Congratulations on the birth of your beautiful son!

mekate said...

Big beautiful REAL LIVE BABY!
WHOOO HOOOOOO!
Congratulations to you all
and gosh darn, big baby there, whoa nellie. Hope you are ok!

Happy happy happy
warmly,
Kate

Big Love, Big Acceptance - or so I say said...

Congratulations! Sean is beautiful. I am so happy for you. Thank you for sharing your life so selflessly with the rest of us! Lots of love!

Molly said...

Congrats, Monica! (oh and I bought your book today. I can't wait for it to get here.)

Michelle said...

congrats!!!

I left a little gift for you on my blog. www.missingjuanito.blogspot.com

Tana said...

visiting from tuesday's hope- congratulations! he's beautiful!

Cristin said...

well done. and welcome little man.

Fern said...

Congratulations! He's beautiful.